Siis, alitajunta, elämäni matka ja sieluni perhe???
Mutta en halua olla enää huolestunut muista, luulin päästäneeni irti huolen MUIDEN henkisestä kehityksestä. Siksi vähän ihmettelin tuota unta. Jos se taas viittasi pimeyteen joka on minussa.. niin mitä siitä sitten?
Niin nyt tuli mieleen että olisiko se voinut olla myös varoitusuni, kun eräs harmillinen asia tapahtui ja se vaikuttaa kenties jonkin aikaa. Siitä taas tarot sanoi näin..
The ninth and final card, placed in the center bottom of the triangle, represents the final outcome unless you change course. Two of Swords (Peace): Contradictory characteristics brought together as a means of resolving a conflict.
Refusing to be ruled by negative emotions. Strife brought to a close through clarity of mind and restraint of force. Turning a blind eye to the minor infractions of others.
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The card not shown but at the center of the cross, represents the atmosphere surrounding the central issue.
The Hanged Man: Pausing to reflect. Surrendering to an experience. Adjusting to new ideas through sacrifice. Opening oneself to intuition and enhanced awareness. Letting go of past patterns and growing beyond them. Inner peace, faith, and serenity.
Click for Details The card visible at the center of the cross represents the obstacle that stands in your way - it may even be something that sounds good but is not actually to your benefit. Queen of Pentacles: The essence of earth behaving as water, such as a hot spring:
A warm and generous host, providing shelter and comfort for all who would seek it. A person steadfast, practical, and domestic, able to create opulence and stability in any setting. The qualities of maturity and sensibility, coupled with an innate appreciation for nature and the material world.
Click for Details The card at the top of the cross represents your goal, or the best you can achieve without a dramatic change of priorities. The Lovers: A caring and trusting relationship. Beauty and inner harmony. A decision calling for emotional control and faithfulness to spiritual values.
Click for Details The card at the bottom of the cross represents the foundation on which the situation is based. Ten of Swords (Ruin): Crushing defeat brought about by idle intellectualism divorced from reality.
Sadness and desolation in the aftermath of a catastrophic and total collapse. A decisive conclusion brought about through the swift and merciless application of overwhelming force.Click for Details The card at the left of the cross represents a passing influence or something to be released. Ten of Cups (Satiety): Fulfillment and joy in life and love. Feeling peace, tranquility, and contentment in friends and family. Taking delight in one's good fortune.
Click for Details The card at the right of the cross represents an approaching influence or something to be embraced. Three of Swords (Sorrow):
Unsettling news leading to heartbreak or loneliness. Tactless or hurtful words. Acting without consideration for the emotions of others. Betrayal of trust or confidence. The revelation of a painful truth.
Click for Details The card at the base of the staff represents your role or attitude. Ace of Cups: The seed of a new relationship or spiritual journey - perhaps as yet unseen. An opportunity for joy, contentment, fertility, or enlightenment. Coming to understand the emotional needs of those around you. May represent an unexpected message, a chance meeting, or the start of a friendship or romance.
Click for Details The card second from the bottom of the staff represents your environment and the people you are interacting with. Death:
A major change or transformation, possibly traumatic and unexpected. Freedom from the shackles of the past. A new beginning. Death coupled with rebirth, usually related to consciousness and lifestyle.
Click for Details The card second from the top of the staff represents your hopes, fears, or an unexpected element that will come into play. Two of Swords (Peace): Contradictory characteristics brought together as a means of resolving a conflict. Refusing to be ruled by negative emotions. Strife brought to a close through clarity of mind and restraint of force. Turning a blind eye to the minor infractions of others.
Click for Details The card at the top of the staff represents the ultimate outcome should you continue on this course. Queen of Cups: The essence of water, such as a deep and placid lake: Spirituality, maturity, and grace. A natural counselor and healer, One whose relaxed presence seems to embody deep love and spirituality. A tranquil poet who reflects the nature of the observer. The embrace of all things dreamlike and receptive, such as perfect and unconditional love.
*Tämä oli erikoinen, koska siinä oli monta kertaa menneessä tapahtunut tappio, ei suhteissa tosin, ja sitä uutta suhdetta tungetaan kuvaan. Mikäs nyt piristäisi ellei uusi kumppani, mutta voi olla ettei tapahdu vielä. Siispä lopputulos oli henkisyys.. tuolla ulkona auringossa tunsin olevani vapaa näistä.. 
